That thing about you

That thing about you
You sat in your classroom and were absent-minded looking out of the window. Your pencil fell out of your hands onto the doodle that you drew. A smile graced your lips, as you saw two butterflies whizzing , playing around and just having a fun time. ~Are they in love?~ you asked yourself. You looked around in the classroom, there he was. His name was Chanyeol, he always had a smile on his pretty lips, he kinda was always happy. When he looked sad than only for a few of minutes. ”How is he doin’ that..’ you whispered  fascinated when you watched him as he once again fooled around with his friends. His laugh was the brightest and loudest in class.
It was…beautiful. When you are sad you just imagine him smiling and laughing in front of you. Weeks passed and your admiration for the guy named Chanyeol started to rise, more than ever. Someday the classroomdoor opened and Chanyeol came in. He looked endless sad and dog tired.. What did happen? You blinked and stopped to write
”I’m sorry..” he mumbled to the teacher.
You looked around, no one seemed to interest what happened to him, everyone kept on writing.
You looked to Chanyeol and  wanted to ask him what happened to him, but mistrusted to.
A few of days passed..
His beautiful smile was now completely gone .. Chanyeol didn’t talk to anyone anymore. The smile you loved so incredibly much was now like stolen..
You started to feel ashamed, because you never dared to talk to him about his problems.
It scared you how he pushed everyone away who wanted to talk to him.
Someday you slowly toddled home, Chanyeol  kept on blocking your mind, with a lowered head you walked your way further. Your heart was full of desire after his clangorously laugh and it slowly teared apart. You walked along the school wall.
From far you saw a guy with long legs sitting on the top of the wall, you walked nearer . You stopped walking and looked up, it was Chanyeol, still he was beautiful..
Your gaze met each others but as soon as that he looked away, you watched him, again he looked so sad and tired. You climbed to him on the top of the wall and sat next to him. You two said nothing and did not look at each other. ”I miss it…” you whispered and looked into his eyes. You never talked to him before, he turned his head to you and looked into your eyes.
In his eyes you could see that he was curious. ”Your smile.” you sadly said with a smile on your lips. It wasn’t a real smile..You just smiled for no sense.  Chanyeol lowered his gaze, he once deeply breathed in and out. ”I-..” he said but stopped it seemed to do a lot of pressure to him. You looked at him with a warm smile. ”Trust me.” you quietly said. ”I’m scared…” he said and looked up. ”What are you afraid of?” you asked and started to cling” your little fingers together. ”It’s a secret.” he said and his strength seemed to be blown away. He jumped off the wall ”Chanyeol! Wait for me!” you shouted and ran after him to catch him up.  Together you were walking home, without talking to each other.. Suddenly he stopped walking and sighed. You looked confused and also stopped. ”Chanyeol?” you asked again. ”I’m afraid of telling everybody that I’m gay!!!” he spitted out of words. Your eyes widely opened and  your heart seemed tear apart in more than thousand small pieces, your gaze lowered.
With a fake smile on your face you said that this isn’t much of a deal, just to comfort him.
Something positive it had.. now you now what depressed him that much. But why was that all of sudden? ”I don’t know what to do! How will my parents react? My friends?” he said you could tell from his eyes how desperate he actually was. You hugged him, and your arms glided around his tummy. You hold him tight and dearly, even though your heart cramped while you was doing that. ”Chanyeol, i’m sure. The people who love you will forever support you.” you said and hugged him even tighter. He seemed to be surprised.
”Thank you ____.” he quietly said, you detached from him. ”Trust me! I’m gonna’ help you!” you smiled and kept on hiding your misery. Together you mastered his outing. Everything was doing great, even though he lost some of his friends, it didn’t bother him in any way. He said now he knows who are his real friends.
But the main reason for you, the thing that you think is wonderful… His smile was back again, and  more beautiful and brighter than it ever was. It was a smile of the bottom of his heart.
Again you sat in your class room and eyed him.. sad but with so much happiness that the smile was back again you sat on to your  seat and doodled again.. Even though you will be never with him.. His smile won your heart for ever… Because there was that thing about him.
It was love.